Goodbye 2012 , and hello 2013🎈

I guess a lot if things happened in 2012. Too much for me to handle. Haha. But after all I've gone thru I came out stronger. And haters gonna hate. Okay, do I have haters? Haha idk exactly. But yeap. I'm really reluctant for 2012 to be over. Sigh :( broken heart , broken friendships. But after all everything's fine. And I'm glad it is. My still living in denial!!! I don't want it to be 2013 :( I've so much that I hold on in 2012. Anyway for 2013, I hope I'll study even harder man. It's gonna be tough :(( school is starting tmr. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? CAUSE I CAN'T. ASDFGHJKL. And I'm in upper sec now..... Sigh.... My recess :< my 1.15pm releases :< alright shall end off here xx hopefully I'll be able to wake up on time for school... And I'm screwed cause my school has grey colour... Hahaha
1/1/13

War

There's a war inside of me. I'm fighting it alone. Don't know when I'll just collapse. But I tell myself not to give up. Cause I know I'm gonna make it as long as I have the determination.

23/11/12

It's been a month. A fast one month. A sad and difficult one month. Glad that everything's over. Glad I'm moving on. I just after all , I've just become stronger and stronger. This taught me how to let go. I've learnt to let go. It's a difficult thing. But you just gotta do what you gotta do. I find it hard to forget everything. After like 8months? Tell me how easy it is to forget someone. And be friends with them. Tell me. It's not easy. I've cried. But now that everything's over, I'm relived. In ready to start a new life in 2013. I'm glad. Just glad.

Hat Yai Trip 16/12/12-19/12/12

Day 1
Hired a taxi for 1000baht which is $40 Singapore dollars . Major ex :( heading to lee garden plaza to find a hotel. It's a 20min drive. Luckily I have a portable charger. Cuz my phone kinda died in the plane. Had top grade bird nest and real shark fin soup in a seafood//bird nest restaurant. Super delicious. And head to the hotel, the hotel is super nice and good!! The view from the 23rd level is amazing!!! The view at night is simply nice. Ate seafood for dinner if I'm not wrong!! :) didn't do much!

Day 2
Woke up early to get breakfast. Had breakfast buffet.. But there's minimal things to eat :( then we went on a tour , consisting of nine places, we went to the beach, a place to see the elephant and I took a ride on the elephant. Hoho cool right!! Woooo I enjoyed it!!! Hehe. Went to the beach too!! And also a sleeping Buddha temple. The sleeping Buddha is huge!!!!! ☝ At night we went to the night market to shop. Saw a denim circle skirt was complementing it, but didnt get it in the end :( instead I got a sunflower highwaisted shorts and a tribal highwaisted shorts for my sis. Went to take a walk around my hotel's plaza, saw a camo highwaisted shorts and i immediately bought it!! Cause I really like it! Dinner was also seafood!!! We uad tom yum and big prawns! and veggie. Had guava for supper! Dad got big head prawns for supper but I didn't have it cause I got sick and tired of having prawns..

Day 3.
Went on a tour again!! This time it was a temple on the mountain! Cooool!!! The temple can be seen from my hotel, since I'm staying at 23rd level! ✌Went to light up fire crackers , okay it wasn't me cause I was too afraid to light up the fire cracker!! My dad did! He bought two big fire crackers!! My first time witnessing a fee cracker live!! After that we went to a icy place like snow city. They had ice sculptures of marina bay sands, and other countries various attractions. Cool huh. And I saw an ice slide, so... Still being a kid, I went down the slide, it was fun!! I went down the slide pretty fast cause the slide was slippery! Okay don't judge, even if you do.. I won't care! Haha lunch was at this random restaurant that we found nearby, the bill was 2,850. Which is close to 120 for 10 person, which is considered okay I guess... Went shopping after that, walk around a random street, found a leather skirt that I've always wanted, but too bad I didn't get the other colours :( dinner at the same place as where I had seafood in day 2. Love the food there!!! But it was the last night at hat yai :( so sad.... Went down with my dad and sis to get the big prawns but we got it in medium size since we've had the large ones the other day. Took a self-portrait of myself with the Christmas tree outside the hotel. The picture tired out pretty well!! 👍

Day 4
Rise and since🌞 went to get mac porridge for breakfast. While parents went for buffet. Didn't go to the buffet cause it didn't have much thing that's nice I eat... After my parents were back from their breakfast , we head out to go to the plaza , which is just below our hotel.. But it wasn't open yet, it opens at 10.30. And it was only 10. So we decided to walk one round around the street, and came back. By the time we came back , the plaza was going to be open, went there to go to the converse retail store to get school shoes. Surprisingly the price there was cheaper than sg. By probably $10 for low cut shoes and $40 for high cut shoes?? And it's not the fake converse that you get from the night market , it's authentic converse. My sister and 1 each bought a pair and we got a high cut shoes for my older sister. Spent about 130sgd (3,250baht) there. After that we went back to the hotel to pack our luggage since we bought 3 pairs of shoes, we had to pack our luggage again. After that we checked out, and booked a van to the airport, we had to wait 25mins for the van so we decided to get food since its hard to get food at the airport. At the airport, we checked in , and we to a cafe I think, dad orders pad Thai and mum ordered Tom Yum. The Tom yum tastes totally different than the Tom yum we had in the restaurant... Lol. I went to get ice cream which it's cup says " Served upside down or else it's free"haha it's kinda cool. After that we went to the boarding gate. And they had a "board me first" lane, so my mum's mine and my sister's ticket had the "BMF" so we could board the plane first! Haha and my dad was the only one stranded at the boarding gate since he bought his ticket in the airport.. Lol. Great ride in the plane except when the plane suddenly went down and up, my heart totally dropped😱 landed safely in sg!
Review on the hotel, place and transport.
Hotel has security = check bags , you'll walk thru this "gate" which sense the metal in your clothes. You'll definitely feel safe. Lobby is in the 10th level. Cool man. They provid free lunch buffet for 2 for each room booked if I'm not wrong. The hotel is clean, comfortable bed, good LCD tv.
Hat yai is definitely an amazing place to visit! Most of them are able to speak chinese , Malay and partially English! And that's great cause it'll be difficult if they only knew how I speak Thai. They are also friendly!! ;) and its really safe there!
Transport , you can take tuk tuk anywhere you go, probably around 20 baht per person I think. I don't see much taxis there, for the 4 day I've been there I only saw like 2 taxis passing by... Haha it'll be a good idea to get a van if you have alot of people going with you.

Hotel : Lee Gardens Plaza Hotel
Plane : Tigerairways
Van : under company. There's a money changer cum ,your services shop near lee gardens plaza hotel.
Tuk tuk: almost anywhere!!!
Shopping place : night market!

Past.

I've been better. Living better, sleeping better. The sight of your name doesn't make my heart break all over again. The sight of Dover station doesn't affect me anymore. I've moved on. You've moved o . We're happier now. No more words. No more tears. No more feelings. No more goodbyes. For we shall bid goodbye for the last time. Everything disappeared. Feelings fade. But memories stay. No more night talks. Everything is gone. Everything's history now. It's the past.
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Coach.

Coach Eddie is like the best coach ever. You can never find a coach like him. NEVER. He's always patient with us, he takes time to explain to us about almost EVERYTHING clearly. Tell me how many coaches actually take his time to explain to you about strategies??? Even when he's sick, he still does not take an mc? He even bothers to come to train with us for extra trainings. Tell me how you can ind this kind of coach? And he actually does not care about the time, and most of the time he always train us 1/2 hour or more extra. It's good! We learn more this way. And even when he has to pick up his wife, he still does not pick up his call from his wife!!! Tell me who other than coach Eddie is dedicated to basketball so much?! Tell me who use all sorts of weird things to describe something. Who talks about cold jokes? Who laughs with us? Who encouraged us ? If we succeed in winning the 'b' division next year, we owe coach Eddie a big big thank you, cause our victory is because of coach eddie's guidance!!! But regardless of what the outcome would be next year, it would really be nice to give a big thank you to coach. 😘 hehe hopefully I'll be given a chance to play in 'b' division next year!

NHK U15 Basketball Match& updates!

Today was the NHK match between SG & INDO , SG won. 😺 Both sides played well! It was a really close match between both. Both fought hard! But sg won in the end! Happy for their victory! :) next match was MY & PHIL ,Philippine won! They both had a great game, but the score were far, I guess Philippine had better skills than Malaysia. So tired after watching the two matches😕 I'm like half dead man. But tmr I don't have to go for tuition! 🎉🎉🎉 hehe yay!! But it means I have to catch up the next lesson :( noooooo anyway, I'll be flying on Sunday in the afternoon at 13:25. Eggcited for the trip!!! Can't wait for Sunday to come! Almost done packing already, hehe. Alright that's it or today! Adios! The next post will be on the 16th before I fly! Tune in!!! I'll be posting it around 12? So do say tune alright!! 😆😋

Songs.

Song are memory triggers to me. A certain song will bring back certain memories. Some memories are good some are bad. But listening to the songs, just makes you have a flash back. "I won't give up" is one of the memory trigger that I have. It's a real deep one. It just brings me back too much memories. And reminds me of how far I've come. And how much I went thru.
I just old songs are the most meaningful ones. I find myself downloading old songs that holds onto many memories. Don't know if that's gonna be a good thing or not. But whatever! Old songs still relates to me best! Love em!

OMS

Hello everybody! So today was the launch of oms. It was kinda crazy cause my phone was struggling to enter the website because of the "traffic" entering the website. So I manage to add a skater skirt and my sister's tribal highwaisted shorts into my cart, and manage to check out before everything was oos. Received the invoice soon after. But their Facebook status told us to wait for another email to come , so that we can make our payment. I'm so worried that I would be able to get my stuff. And their stuff was dirt cheap, and the quality is also good I gues, so it's worth the buy. I'll really find it unfair if I do not get my items :( cause its the first time that I camped for a launch. FIRST TIME. And I'll be disappointing if I don't get it. So yeap. But after all their system should be improved. Like there will be limited stocks online, then once people check out their items and confirm, the stock count on the website should decrease as well. That way people won't be disappointed after receiving their invoice and later, being emailed that their item is oos. Hopefully I'll receive another email from them! Till then! Ciao👋

Updatesssssss of my life.

Helloooo!!! Life's good I guess. Well, sometimes. :) but yeap! I've been shopping alot! Shopping spree!!! Bought a bucket bag, checkered shirt, pullover, skirt, watch & shades. Can't wait to wear them out. Haha. So yeap, getting my books on 6dec. I wonder when bball will resume. I hope soon!! Gonna go for a run later. Really need to prepare for next year, and train my stamina. I wanna improve my 2.4km so badly. And all the late night snacking is making me fat. Haha okay... But the good thing is that I grew taller. 👍✌ yes! I hope I'm like 163+ when I take my height next year :( pls :(
Hmm so I'm gonna go overseas to Hat Yai on 16th dec to 19th. Maybe i'll be taking the train to Bangkok. Hope so ! I really wanna go to Bangkok though. But it's fine if I'm going to Hat Yai this year. At least I get to get out of SG!! Hehe

Secondary school life.

I guess when you're sec 1. It's the most relaxed part of secondary school life. As long as you listen in class , you'll be able to score a decent mark for your exams. But sec 2, you gotta start working hard from the start. No slacking. Cause it's an important year. Streaming. Everyone will know how important it is to work hard to get into the course they want, so you gotta work hard too. Haha well, I regret no working hard at the first half of the year. My math grades were like crap though I score like 60+ for CT 1 & Mid-year. But I barely passed CT 2. That was when I was familiar with doing algebra problem sums . That was when I FINALLY understand algebra. It took me so long to be able to do it. But I'm glad that by the time it was EYE, I was prepared. But I never felt prepared. I'll freak out the day before. I always feel this relieve after math paper. I'm like ITS FINALLY OVER. 👏 What about science. Hmm it's sucked. Lol the day before I broke down and cried. Cause I really did not feel prepared at all. But I'm glad that I took effort to study and it helped. Chinese... Hmm I failed chinese. Hahahaha. 👎But yeap, I guess I improved alot. And I was really happy with my results overall. So people! Study hard! And you'll not regret. :) trust me, you don't wanna do last minute work! It's tiring! And yeap! I'm totally looking forward to graduating! Another 2 tiring years! 💪
30/11/12
2:02am
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Whatz happenin'

It's time to inject some happiness into my live. 😁 Alright. So yesterday I went online shopping and found an item that I really likes so I bought it :) also, I saw a topshop edge painted satchel idk if I should get it though :( it's like 60+ :(
What's happening: today I had math tuition from 3pm to 4.30pm.
Sat no tuition. Yay! Gonna go shopping with my sisters. I'm looking forward to that!! Really love shopping!
Probably during the dec holiday , I'm gonna visit USS. :) can't wait for that too. And also dec is going to be packed with bball trainings which are on, to prepare for next year's "B" division competition.
Yeap I guess that's all I have for this two months. Or maybe I'll go ice skating during dec, but.. Who is going with me. :( *forever alone* hahahaha so yeap! Just heard from my mum that we're going overseas for a few days. 👍 I hope we do. I need a real break.

Motivation.

Grateful to what ever happened in my life. Grateful to whoever left and came into my life. "Everything happens for a reason." So I guess whatever happens in my life, it's already pre-destined. I don't think I'll change anything if I can. Cause bad things always happen in life, despite how hard you try to avoid them, they're bound to be there forever. But we shall not avoid them , but we should overcome them. Cause no matter what happens today, tomorrow is gonna come. “ Smile like you've never cried. Fight like you've never lost. Love like you've never been hurt & live like there's no tomorrow.” That's why I'm going to do. I'm going to start everyday with alittle hope and alittle faith. And I'm going to tell myself "Everything is going to be fine." Cause just because something didn't work out the way you think it should have, doesn't mean that it's not going to work out in future. And whatever hurts me now, is going to make me a stronger person tomorrow.

26/11/12 23:20

Best.

I guess meeting you was the best thing ever. It hard to find a guy best friend who is actually trustable. And yeap, I'm glad you came into my life. It's sad how things turned out after 8 months. I guess I'll find it hard to forget everything. And I'll find myself reading thru our conversation over and over again. Cause I find it hard to adjust to it. Changing your contact name, changing my bio, not receiving a text on every 4th, not having something special to arrive, not staying up till 12 to something special. Not having someone who truly care about me. Not having someone who trusts me so much. Gonna miss everything. But, cheers to a new found best friend ☺

Frustrated.

I'm upset that my single Whatsapp conversations are gone. The stupid App Store just decided to restore my phone. I'm lucky that my messages are still intact. But my Whatsapp conversations are as important as my messages. Ugh. I just don't get why it erased my single Whatsapp conversations and not the group. The stuff inside the Whatsapp conversation is something that can never be retrieved by memory. 😭 why must you do this to me at this timing.

Hi.

Blogging cause i'm bored and i cant seem to sleep! I've been sleeping at 2+ lately. And the latest was 4! And now I'm having trouble falling asleep. This is bad. Now my body is so used to being tired at 2+. And guess what, I still have bball training tmr. 😣 I'm going to be dead tmr. 😩 Nooo and the training is going to be with the
guys. I dread training with the guys. Like seriously. It's tough training with them, cause most of the girls skills are far apart from theirs and it gets really tough when we're doing things that is of their standard. Ahhhh 😱😥😅😭but anyway I'm still going to try my best to keep up. :) good luck to me tmr 😭

Empty

Been feeling this way for a week. I really don't know why i'm feeling so emotion-less these days, I can't seem to find a reason to smile. I haven't been like this for awhile. I'm feeling what I felt a year ago. I really don't know what I should do to make myself feel better. These days has been so awful. Tell me what I should do to make everything better.

Basketball. 🏀

Been playing bball for 3 years i guess. I'm still loving it though. Cause everytime i ball, my mind seems to be cleared. It's a great "therapy" for me. I guess being in a court , facing your opponents is one of the most nerve-wrecking things. I still get very scared and nervous during the match. But once the ball is toss into the air. I'm a basketball player🏀🏀 though it gets kind of tough during the match, I still try to persevere on. Being a baller= not being afraid of what people think of you when you're in the court. So yeah and I feel happy that I'm told that I don't look like I play basketball. Hahaha is that something that I should rejoice about?